Journal #27

One thing that I could never even fathom is being away from my home in another country.  What would be even harder would be fighting in the military to defend our country.  I am a person who loves being with my family pretty much at all times.  I was raised to spend time with my family.  Our family is really close, which is something I am very thankful for.  Most parents go on vacations alone so that they can be away from their kids.  My parents would always bring us because they enjoy being together as a family.  The longest my parents have been away from us kids would be one night.  They take yearly trips up to IKEA up by Chicago.  This summer, I was the away for the longest I have ever been from my family.  In July, the poms team went to Tan-Tara Resort in Missouri.  I was gone for a total of four days and it was hard at first being away but then I forgot about that and just had fun.  Because I freaked out at Poms camp, I figure I wouldn't do very well in another country.  Not only would I be in another country, I would also be in the war, fighting.  Fighting could lead to death.  Death is scary.  Death is bad.  I don't want to die.  Right there I was thinking about myself and yes I was being selfish.  I should think about our country and everyone else in it.  I would like to be able to defend our country because I find enjoyment in helping out.  If I could, I would, but I can't so I shan't.  I have a cousin who is a Marine.  He just got married and he is going to be getting deployed again in March.  His new wife has a kid from  her past marriage.  I can't even imagine having to leave his new family for seven months.  That is another reason I would not be able to go overseas.